This year there have been a few setbacks. Goals that had been made were placed on hold as I waited upon other people. I need to stop waiting for other people to be ready to do the things that I want to do… I need to just get out there and do them. As the year winds down I reflect, as we all tend to do. This year has been filled with amazing moments as well as some crapnificent times. I wonder… did I accomplish everything I set out to do?
I thought this year was going to go out on a sour note as I lost the friendship of two people that I cared about. It is better that I am freed from the lies that they spun around me, but it doesn’t mean that I can’t mourn the loss. But as I mentioned the thought of the sour note, I have met a new friend. a possible companion? We shall see. Only time can show me that. He has made it his mission to help me complete my wish list of 2009. The big ticket item was that I wanted to set foot on the golden gate bridge and make the trek to the other side. Last night he asked if for our second date, he could take me across the bridge. I have been begging people to go with me and all were too busy, but this guy is taking the time to show me the way. There is something very magical about this journey that I am embarking upon. I can’t wait to see where it goes. Perhaps this journey across the bridge will bridge the cracks in my heart… whoa that just went to cheeseydom. That’s where I will leave this thought process.
What Makes Life So Sweet
A print by Alli Coate (can be found on etsy)
Have you ever met a person
That fulfilled you deep inside…
Someone who’s never failed you
And stands, no matter what, always by your side.
Someone who gives from their heart
Who brings sunshine all around…
Always smiling and laughing,
Never seeming down.
Have you ever watched a sunset
Across the ocean shore…
And been filled with love and peace,
Never needing more?
Have you ever listened to the wind
Blowing restlessly through the night…
And heard the angel’s whispers
Helping you to see when you’ve lost sight?
Have you heard a song that moves you
And sets your soul free…
Makes you forget your pain and anger
Or makes you feel wild and happy?
Have you ever given to someone
When you didn’t have it to spare…
And afterwards felt so worthy inside,
That you didn’t have a care?
You see my friend, heavenly creatures surround you,
So listen closely to what they say…
They’ll bring you all of life’s riches,
As they guide you along your way.
- Author Unknown
My favorite thing about this time of year.
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That’s the truth
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“I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you” — Friedrich Nietzsche
It was brought to my attention by flippy-floppy that this page needs an update. Here’s to a fresh outlook.
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In the end, we will all have to learn to fly, be it with wings, on a bicycle, it doesn’t matter. In the end, there will be a party attended by our friends, all those people who loved us so well, recalling memories, little details, fragrances of a life, will gather to honour us. There will be a bed, and a long pageant of emotion will play out before that bed. There will be angels, and if it’s a clown who is dead, there will be acrobats and an entire circus will parade by. To turn a burial into a celebration, there will also have to be music… wild, nostalgic and evocative strains. Music beckoning one to blend acrobatics and dance and be carried away on a wave of memories.
If we are lucky, we will look back, and those we leave behind will wave white handkerchiefs and cry out wonderful words to us. If we are lucky, we leave behind an entire circus that will weep and laugh, laugh and weep, that will celebrate by sharing memories, transforming our life into a modest legend.
In the end, we will fly away and the music will take us by the hand and we will begin to dance. We will close our eyes and remember everything, we will invent everything.
To become immersed, we need music to take us by the hand and lead us into a dream… once the music came, it was easier to begin to dance.
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Shattered heart beat
Frozen in time
Looking for someone to hold
And longing to be held at the same time
I looked into his brown eyes
Finding a home
Some place warm
I belonged to him
We brought simplicity
Laughter
Kindness
To an uncanny friendship
happy christmas.
i can’t wait for the standard christmas programming